1. |
||||
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Not anymore...
My chest has been ripped open, seems every question's loaded
Trying to understand what's going on, walking through this city
What bubbles beneath the surface, and there's another disturbance
I'm always such a burden, need another glass of whiskey
I always seem depressed so what the fuck am I missing
What else do I have to give up to get a taste of victory
I'm only getting older, doubt I'll make it as a poet
Will I still be in the same place when I get to my fifties
Mumbling these judgements, nothing I see is certain
Seems I'm going in circles, running after only theories
So I gotta keep this mask on so that I can keep looking cheery
Gotta hide away the pain before I end it all swinging
Heart deep as the oceans, gotta keep it cold like frozen
If I don't there's no way to stop myself from feeling guilty
I have no real purpose, but ending it all seems risky
So sit down, we can talk, I'll need another glass of whiskey
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Not anymore
I'm still so far behind, I don't know what to decide
Because no matter what my choice is, I'll just feel heartless
Seems no one loves me, so I guess you can call me Monday
Knees finally buckling, I'll never make it as an artist
Especially when all I can see around me right now is darkness
Cause there's only so long I can continue to be docile
Imagine what it implies, from this light and love, I'm deprived
At this point, I can't tell blood or tears, they're all droplets
Stay deep in my studies, gotta make it through life humbly
It may look like I'm hurried, just ignoring all my problems
Because if I don't I'll go crazy, feel it's already starting
But at this point I believe I think I'm some kind of martyr
Before I resign, my eulogy I'll fucking recite
To everyone who was there, didn't do shit when I toppled
I'll put it bluntly, you wonder why I was hostile
Because I'm perfect, and it's not always gold when it sparkles
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Not anymore
Bring you down into the ground
Bring you down, bring you down to the ground
Bring you down into the ground
Bring you down, bring you down
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Don’t you see I’m perfect
No, no...
They don’t know me
Not anymore
|
||||
2. |
||||
[Verse 1: MAJA]
As I walk out on this stage
I got my mic, I got my hype, I got my rage, I'm kind of amazed
That I made it, all the way out of this maze when I think about my mistakes
But how can I learn if I cannot burn, like everyone I gotta take turns
'Cause this freestyle's got me locked up, tongue-tied 'cause my tongue died
Ostracized by the diatribes of a dying tribe on my insides
And my sins shine like sunshine in the limelight
Burning my skin like a vampire, damn I'm noticing I write tighter
When I align with that passion, it's like hiring an assassin
To put shame in cross-hairs and get straight to blasting
Bastard sword rapping, the clouds above rain down hard
I got enough self-worth now, I don't need that black card
I don't need that street credit, I'm putting shit on layaway
I'm running around like I'm Limitless and I ain't even gotta pay today
I'm free now, I take space, I'm me now, do you see now
I do these now, I just have faith, keep the pen moving
Cloud nine - I feel superhuman, Super Sayian when I power up
I was rat-racing, paper-chasing, now I'm seeing all the damage doing
Reaping all the advantages and benefits of eliminating all the self-hating
I'm concentrating on honoring all the steps taking I'm almost out the maze
[Hook: MAJA]
Raise a glass
Make a toast
To yourself
Who matters most
If you're winning
Honor your humble
Just remember
Honor your struggle x2
[Verse 2: Granyte]
This is getting insane, I just want you all to see me
The pressure's finally on, guess I just started sinking
Swallowed up by what's in my mind, crushing me like the deep sea
I can't fucking take this anymore, but I can't stop the breathing
Need me? Fuck them all, backpacking bastard plastered like the ceiling
I'm staring at, am I dreaming? 'Cause it's only demons I'm seeing
Please be more than I can see, it's not in the prose, just in the meaning
Ask me what the fuck I mean, I got no clue man, I'm not teasing
Just trying to pass the time, staring at these shadows 'cause they keep creeping
Up the walls, thousand bars, can't get out with any amount of pleading
I am just stuck here until one of you bastards try to read me
When I open up it's my heart and my soul that you're seeing
But no one can find me, 'cause I can't find my way out of this beating
Trapped in the maze, mastered the flame, but about as useful as a match in the rain
The bastard'll pray, maybe fasting today, but about as useful as a hatchet that's clay
God's not here today, but the light showed the way, so one day, I'll break outta this fucking maze
[Hook: MAJA]
Raise a glass
Make a toast
To yourself
Who matters most
If you're winning
Honor your humble
Just remember
Honor your struggle x2
|
||||
3. |
||||
4. |
||||
It's another win, yeah, bring on another win
Get the fuck up, and get this mosh pit rumbling
It's another win, yeah, bring on another win
Super saiyan swagger got the fucking stage crumbling x2
Now I'm back, yeah that corny looking white boy
Denver Colorado and we're getting mile high boy
To write these songs I gotta hold myself at knifepoint
I spit this sick shit real quick, call me typhoid
It's just insanity, trigger for this calamity
Burn your fucking house down then ask you why you're mad at me
Bust the knees out of anyone who questions my profanity
Call it blasphemy, but I still never plan to be
More than just the sidekick to a motherfucking malady
The Four Horseman make these whack rappers atrophy
Actually, I'm just blowing shit out of proportion
Bring on another win, I need a new opponent
It's another win, yeah, bring on another win
Get the fuck up, and get this mosh pit rumbling
It's another win, yeah, bring on another win
Super saiyan swagger got the fucking stage crumbling x2
The masked bastard, plastered cause I have to
Liqour up to show my fucking ass up on an album
Hanging with my friends, Cinderella and the Captain
Share em with the party, we got mosh pit madness
Pass the torch, light up this party, we got no remorse
Feeling immortal right now, what is my last resort
I say what the fuck I want to when I hit the booth and hit record
Distorting my senses, just a pence is my damn reward
No retorts, just a fucking bottle and a boogie board
You didn't do this shit right if there's nothing bruised or torn
Actually, I'm just blowing shit out of proportion
Bring on another win, I need a new opponent
It's another win, yeah, bring on another win
Get the fuck up, and get this mosh pit rumbling
It's another win, yeah, bring on another win
Super saiyan swagger got the fucking stage crumbling x2
|
||||
5. |
||||
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
I remember back in middle school, I was still a nerdy dude
New kid, in a new state, what the hell have I got to lose
Friends kept me grounded, but then I saw a girl
And I was smitten, thought of her as my whole world
But she was out of my league, she was Majors, I was Minors
There was a dance coming up, and I thought I'd just try her
One day after class, man, I asked the question
She said yes, felt like it was one of God's blessings
So the day came, and the dance turned out great man
Someone spiked the punch, most of the dance got wasted
Couple weeks later, she started acting shifty
Actively avoiding me, I figured it was ending
But what she told me took me by surprise
Apparently she'd get drunk then fuck a bunch of guys
You're too good for me, she said one day after class
Man fuck it, I guess nice guys do finish last
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
Alone 5 more years, then I remembered a girl
That I dated in high school, she fucked up my world
We dated for a while, things were going okay
But I was hearing shit from everybody, what can I say
So I dumped her, and then two weeks later
She showed up at my house with a little piece of paper
She was pregnant, and she was saying it was mine
At first I was excited, didn't think she was lying
But her story didn't add up and she wouldn't take a test
Wondering if my father went through this mess
Am I just like him, stuck at a fork with poor choices
The child didn't look like me, but no rejoicing
Cause if he is mine, I wanna spend time with him
But at the same time, I don't wanna be another victim
Got a baby of my own, and I can't live in the past
Man fuck it, I guess nice guys do finish last
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
Went through all that shit, found a new girl from my past
Started chatting again, but she lived near Boston, Mass
She came down in a Greyhound, and then we clicked
She stayed down for about a month and then off she went
Kept in contact, pretty soon she wanted to move in
So me and Randy took a little road trip, so stupid
18 hours one way, and the bitch still wasn't grateful
I was an ugly piece of shit, putting food on the table
Couple months pass, seem to be getting along well
Except she didn't want to work, just stay at home and cause hell
Came home one day, and guess what I found
She was cyber sexing her ex on my damn couch
I saw red, damn near took her fucking head off
But I'm not like my step-dad, not like him at all
I fucking ended it, and I'm done living in the past
Man fuck it, I guess nice guys do finish last
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
Take me away from here, take me away
Take me away, away, away from here
|
||||
6. |
||||
[Hook]
Depression
Depression
[Verse 1: Granyte]
Gasping for air, can't seem to find a way out
Broken swings and cool breeze in this broken playground
All I wanted was a crowd to say my name loud
Call me rare or well-done, my life's a steakhouse
And now this broken city's crumbling around me
And I didn't do it cruising down these south streets
Why do I feel so alone with all these people around me
No matter what I say this isn't fucking about me
Drowning, no lifeguard for this cowed beast
Shouting, as my mind spins me closer to county
Pounding, my head, as this monster keeps prowling
Towering, so far away I wanna start howling
Worse, when my idols start talking out of my speaker box
Telling me where I'm at right now, that's the easy part
But at this point I'm fatigued, can't even reach the bars
Mile high city but I still can't reach the gods
[Hook]
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
That's no question, sick and tired
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
That's no question, sick and tired
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
Depression, Depression
Depression
[Verse 2: MAJA]
Depression
Taught me a valuable lesson
When I let it take my spears now I'm trying to catch them
Every night I be stressing, growing older every second
I went Ghost in the Shell, left the whole globe guessing like
"Where's MAJA, is he vapor, dude skated?
Is he okay, his MAJA mondays went away."
Facebook faded, Twitter feed Nathan
Fans hitting me up, saying they waiting
I'm going Voltron, reconnecting to songs
My lyrics my legs, my anger my arms
My heart in my stomach, 'cause the pressure is on
I gotta keep writing and fighting 'cause the pressure is strong
And that shit ain't stronger than me
I refuse to bow down and eternally sleep
Robin Williams fought hard until his end and I hope he rests in peace
But I ain't gotta be another tragedy, 'cause I overcame
Depression
[Hook]
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
That's no question, sick and tired
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
That's no question, sick and tired
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
That's no question, sick and tired
Depression, under pressure
Let this stay this Depression
Depression, Depression
Depression
[Verse 3: Alpha Riff]
Been at the doors of despairs in my life
And the loved ones I know almost paid the price
Put the 9 to my dome, pull the trigger, but it’s clickin’
No bullets, no blood, so I’m just left thinkin’
That far gone, that I don’t know true from the false
Wrapped up in myself, ain’t no love for the lost
Visualize my heart ripped out and beating
In my hands, cause it’s death I’m meeting
I wanted to pick up the phone, mom
But I couldn’t make that phone call
And tell you that your son got real fucked in the head
And one day you’d find out I was dead
Escorted by the men in blue behind yellow tape
Living room, games in that same paused state
To my bed where the pills and the booze were
And your son’s remains through your teared blur
Cause depression
|
||||
7. |
||||
[Intro: Melanie Girard]
Who do you see, Who do you see
Who do you see, Who do you see
Who do you
Who do you
Who do you
Who who who who do you see
[Hook: Melanie Girard]
What do you see, when you look at me
What do you see
Tell me do you see what I see
When you look at me
[Verse 1: Granyte]
Take off this crumbling mask, now who do you see
I can't keep taking this shit, I'm just a human being
Can't speak the language of love, this stupidity
You already killed me once, so just fucking shoot me please
Take my son, take my life, take my love, take my mind
Take my gun, take me high, make me numb, take a dive
I don't know what happened bu tonight my guardian angel died
'Cause right now, there's a knife guard deep in my spine
Trying to keep the demons at bay, all I can see are negative signs
Telling me to keep my center in Christ, always feel neglected inside
It always feels like only others can flash a genuine smile
So I gotta keep the mask on, bright lights forever in sight and then I'm
[Hook: Melanie Girard]
What do you see, when you look at me
What do you see
Tell me do you see what I see
When you look at me x2
[Verse 2: Granyte]
A piece of shit, a poser, or an adequate mind
This isn't a game anymore, this rap shits a battle of pride
Beat down my whole life, but I know right now I'm full of anger and pride
Spit daggers - honed knife - it's already showtime and I'm lagging behind
Just wishing that one of these days I could please the bastard inside
That I could do nice for other people and would be answered in kind
And it seems like the ceiling is absolutely my maximum height
And that once in a lifetime shot is gone but it happens sometimes
But not to me, lost damn near everything just have this music to soothe
Keep me on the path that I've chosen, can't seem to go the usual route
So, let's use our mutual view to create a mutual truth
Life's just a fucking battlefield and we're maneuvering through
[Hook: Melanie Girard]
What do you see, when you look at me
What do you see
Tell me do you see what I see
When you look at me x4
|
||||
8. |
||||
Wanna take the pain away, I can promise you nothing
Just wanna remain unnamed, my sharpness is dulling
People just take and take, never pulling their punches
You were my greatest gain, my love was so earnest
My insides decay decay, now I gotta keep running
Couldn't escape unscathed, these scars got me clutching
My chest, gotta break away, demons say they'll be punished
Ask me to explain explain, I won't tell you nothing
Here's what the tapes contain, a silhouette plunging
Took my brain and weighed, climbed the building said fuck it
Blood stained fatal plains, feels like my head is just gushing
Stood up, came to strange, and walked away stumbling
Just need you to stay away, these feelings are puzzling
Still love you but major pain, this monster is yearning
To pull your heart out, and show you what you did to mine
To make you feel this pain and realize that you're still alive
Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming
Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming
You took my son away, then acted like it was nothing
And now I must escape, this fucking maze before it rushes
I don't have much to say, just understand that I'm struggling
We coulda seen the money game, and now you're just thumbing
Your nose on another date, all of this pain is just numbing
Me, I'm the one to blame, all this blood is just rushing
See, I'm gonna fucking faint, you call this shit justice
Please, notice the conundrum faced, how I'm getting punished
These assholes took my gun away, and this weight is just crushing
Me, These words must convey, when I'm trying to say something
I'm done playing fucking games, I'm done with all the bluffing
Sit high while I fucking chase, I'm tired of the chuckling
Just need you to stay away, these feelings are puzzling
Still love you but major pain, this monster is yearning
To pull your heart out, and show you what you did to mine
To make you feel this pain and realize that you're still alive
Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming
Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming
That was the day my hope died, gave in to the monster
He made my eyes go blind, all I could think was just constant
Anger, why oh why, now I'll end up just like my father
let life roll by, passed out bottle after bottle
Never high profile, just more baby mama drama
Living behind closed blinds, my outlook always getting darker
With my own nightmares, thought I would never ever falter
Bottle of right old wine, down it to forget all my problems
I'll never find those lights until I can make myself stronger
But I might go wild, a fear I'll carry as a scholar
Hit every milestone like, will I actually make good on my promise
Blow up like dynamite, or just get forever softer
Just need you to stay away, these feelings are puzzling
Still love you but major pain, this monster is yearning
To pull your heart out, and show you what you did to mine
To make you feel this pain and realize that you're still alive
|
||||
9. |
||||
[Hook: Lucy Grace]
In times of struggle, when there's signs of trouble
You've gotta believe it x2
[Verse 1: Granyte]
Flipping through these pages, wondering where the end is
Scouring the tome for the hint of my last sentence
Stuck behind these bars, wanna get back to living
Trying to find the balance I need, but I'm no chemist
Wanna move forward, but my past is preventing
Me from taking anymore steps, don't know where I'm heading
Everyone else sounds festive, I'm tumbling down the chasm
Floating around just feeling sorry, a washed up phantom
I remember the days when I used to only pen anthems
Now I can't remember a time when I could use this talent
Just gotta keep my head up, gotta believe it
Fuck it, I can't take this anymore, man I'm leaving
[Hook: Lucy Grace]
In times of struggle, when there's signs of trouble
You've gotta believe it x2
Hold your heart close, because it's the only one that will lead you
You've gotta believe it x3
[Verse 2: Granyte]
Don't know if I can really make it another day
Feeling like I'm locked up, a rat inside a cage
Blameless, these heinous changes are finally underway
Feeling weightless amoungst the waves as it floods and rains
I'm perfect, misunderstood, what else would I fucking claim
I wear a mask on stage so that you don't have to look away
Stuck in this fucking maze, I'm so tired of the running
Chasing after a dream, hoping that I don't end up with nothing
I can never seem to hold my ground, always end up budging
Losing everything I care about, all I can think is fuck it
Just gotta keep my head up, gotta believe it
Fuck it, I can't take this anymore, man I'm leaving
[Hook: Lucy Grace]
In times of struggle, when there's signs of trouble
You've gotta believe it x2
Hold your heart close, because it's the only one that will lead you
You've gotta believe it x3
[Verse 3: Granyte]
Asking me to put my faith in a higher plane
Hands around my neck, dragging me around with her iron chain
Every night before I sleep I just try and pray
But just like me, she uses a mask to hide her face
Now I'm chasing cinderella, ask me what the high contains
If I can't make it go away I suppose I'll die in vain
So how am I supposed to keep going with no end in sight
So how am I supposed to win this game with no will to fight
So how am I supposed to sleep when there's no stars at night
And how am I supposed to dream with no hope in sight
Just gotta keep my head up, gotta believe it
Fuck it, I can't take this anymore, man I'm leaving
[Hook: Lucy Grace]
In times of struggle, when there's signs of trouble
You've gotta believe it x2
Hold your heart close, because it's the only one that will lead you
You've gotta believe it x3
|
||||
10. |
Glory
02:51
|
|||
Alone in this abyss, is there anyone to save me
I wanna make amends, but I can't get over this hating
A sick punchline to the joke that everybody made me
Can't open my eyes to see the future that's awaiting
Always keep it to myself, and it drives me fucking crazy
Stuck inside my mind and I can't break away these chains, see
Is it just me, or am I really all alone
Where do I go if I can't seem to find a home
Where do I go if I can't find another all alone
Where do I go if I can't focus on the hope
Now the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
Glory Hallelujah, Glory to the King
Glory Hallelujah, Glory to the King
Three days for grace seems a little fucking cheap
He made me a demon, feel it deep inside of me
Fuck your Lord, Fuck your Christ, I'm just focusing on me x2
Crown of thorns on my head, feels like they're digging in deep
My cross drags me down, I can't seem to fucking sleep
Just keep tossing and turning, fighting the urge to fucking weep
Feel like a scared little kid, and this pain ain't cheap
Got me on stage yelling that this fame can't dream
Drag me back into the chasm, just the same damn things
Drown the voices with a 40 and some damn weed smoke
Take these eyes off me, I'm not longer your freakshow
Gotta make it before I kill myself, that's what the geek wrote
There's no God to save me, just some wolves in sheep's clothes
Now the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
Glory Hallelujah, Glory to the King
Glory Hallelujah, Glory to the King
Three days for grace seems a little fucking cheap
He made me a demon, feel it deep inside of me
Fuck your Lord, Fuck your Christ, I'm just focusing on me x4
I thought one day my life would end in glory
I still can't read the final chapter of my story
Maybe one day I'll finally rest in peace
Glory Hallelujah, Glory to the king
|
||||
11. |
Phillip Norman
03:21
|
|||
About to rip these fucking beats apart - vivisection
And show you my beating heart, call that shit introspection
Just listen to the fucking words, I mean no disrespect miss
But if you get offended, then you're being inattentive
And I can end you faster than I can end an infant resting
Tired of the drama and the constant interceptions
Get my words across to get your unofficial blessing
Show you the intermarriage of this pain and disconnection
Feeling like the tides right now I'm waxing ill poetic
Storm these goddamn castle gates to destroy the figures bearing
My hopes, my dreams, my life, my screams
Good night, can't sleep, someone, save me
From this darkness surrounding me as I give it all up
And these voices can't shut the fuck up in this inner forum
Got me writing about this life like I'm Phillip Norman
Burn this fucking city down with this hidden molotov
Open every door, and feel the darkness surround you
Every little lie has to be crafted to sound true
My mask on my face, and this mic in my hand
And a machete to show the world we're in different camps x2
About to blow the fuck up, spitting straight kerosene
I can't calm the fuck down, I don't know serenity
My life is falling around me, yeah you better scream
No control, but I can end it all successively
Grab a bottle of Jack and a handful of ketamines
You're doing well? Well, you can call me entropy
Cause I can fuck up your world if you let me breathe
Act like there's an S on my chest, my life's charity
Drive me into the ground like I'm a fucking Kennedy
I'm so tired, why can no one ever rescue me
It's like you can always hear me, but listening selectively
What did I do, why am I just condemned to be
Stuck in this fucking loop, just repeating every week
Got me writing about this life like I'm Phillip Norman
Burn this fucking city down with this hidden molotov
Open every door, and feel the darkness surround you
Every little lie has to be crafted to sound true
My mask on my face, and this mic in my hand
And a machete to show the world we're in different camps x4
From this darkness surrounding me as I give it all up
And these voices can't shut the fuck up in this hidden forum
Got me writing about this life like I'm Phillip Norman
Burn this fucking city down with this hidden molotov
|
Granyte Denver, Colorado
Proud father, Atheist, Democratic Socialist, Writer, Artist, Rapper. I also dabble in code. Current Projects: Traveler's Gate & The Defiance.
Streaming and Download help
If you like Granyte, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp