Wanna take the pain away, I can promise you nothing
Just wanna remain unnamed, my sharpness is dulling
People just take and take, never pulling their punches
You were my greatest gain, my love was so earnest
My insides decay decay, now I gotta keep running
Couldn't escape unscathed, these scars got me clutching
My chest, gotta break away, demons say they'll be punished
Ask me to explain explain, I won't tell you nothing
Here's what the tapes contain, a silhouette plunging
Took my brain and weighed, climbed the building said fuck it
Blood stained fatal plains, feels like my head is just gushing
Stood up, came to strange, and walked away stumbling
Just need you to stay away, these feelings are puzzling
Still love you but major pain, this monster is yearning
To pull your heart out, and show you what you did to mine
To make you feel this pain and realize that you're still alive

Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming
Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming

You took my son away, then acted like it was nothing
And now I must escape, this fucking maze before it rushes
I don't have much to say, just understand that I'm struggling
We coulda seen the money game, and now you're just thumbing
Your nose on another date, all of this pain is just numbing
Me, I'm the one to blame, all this blood is just rushing
See, I'm gonna fucking faint, you call this shit justice
Please, notice the conundrum faced, how I'm getting punished
These assholes took my gun away, and this weight is just crushing
Me, These words must convey, when I'm trying to say something
I'm done playing fucking games, I'm done with all the bluffing
Sit high while I fucking chase, I'm tired of the chuckling
Just need you to stay away, these feelings are puzzling
Still love you but major pain, this monster is yearning
To pull your heart out, and show you what you did to mine
To make you feel this pain and realize that you're still alive

Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming
Listen to me honestly, I can promise you nothing
I just wanna save today, but these horses are bucking
Can't get out, to get away I just started running
I don't know what caused this but more problems are coming

That was the day my hope died, gave in to the monster
He made my eyes go blind, all I could think was just constant
Anger, why oh why, now I'll end up just like my father
let life roll by, passed out bottle after bottle
Never high profile, just more baby mama drama
Living behind closed blinds, my outlook always getting darker
With my own nightmares, thought I would never ever falter
Bottle of right old wine, down it to forget all my problems
I'll never find those lights until I can make myself stronger
But I might go wild, a fear I'll carry as a scholar
Hit every milestone like, will I actually make good on my promise
Blow up like dynamite, or just get forever softer
Just need you to stay away, these feelings are puzzling
Still love you but major pain, this monster is yearning
To pull your heart out, and show you what you did to mine
To make you feel this pain and realize that you're still alive