from
The Defiance,
released April 20, 2015
[Hook: Eli Rebich]
Long nights with your head in the clouds
Your mercy's been your mission and your plan to break out
You gotta lose yourself
It's okay to lose yourself
[Verse 1: Granyte]
Lost my way, now I'm just trying to make it back
Always going in circles, man my life's a racing track
Still not a Christian, but I doubt I'll take a pagan's path
Feels like I'm melting, I don't know what to make of that
Constantly falling to pieces like I'm fucking made of wax
Not how my brain reacts to these greater plans
Me getting on stage is sometimes considered a heinous act
I just wanna be myself, I'm trying to regain some fans
Hurt so many people, just wanna take it back
And deep down that shit hurts more than my aching back
But I'm just a man, slowly changing into a brainiac
I'm doing everything in my power to try and make it fast
I'm still getting over this shit, get my baby back
So I can feel complete again, man, don't make me laugh
I can see the path, you know how much I hate to brag
But it's one foot in front of the other just to make it back
[Hook: Eli Rebich]
Long nights with your head in the clouds
Your mercy's been your mission and your plan to break out
You gotta lose yourself
It's okay to lose yourself
[Verse 2: Alpha Riff]
Once believed that my life could be written down in chapters
But these characters and plots were just dreams that I was after
When the tales were over and done, I lost a part of myself
Wrote a new page and now it's gone, it's gotta be something else
'Cause, I'm reliving and retelling the constant memories
Just reflections of myself 'cause I had no voice to speak
I was meek, and I hated everything
Most of all this black man, in the mirrors I would see
But you couldn't show me what I was living for
Head in my hands, parents fought just a little more
Now here comes me again, when the tense and the certain
Christians, Muslims, Jews and finally Wiccans
Took lessons from all of them in the hopes I could quicken
My basic understanding of what it meant to be human
What I learned is that you can't, you gotta live it
In those night talks with my very own spirit
Not remembering just what it is I am saying
Nothing to do with robes, bowing, and praying
'Cause death was once my constant companion
And self-hate, was the symbol for slaying
What devolved from my eyes and I can see it's mine
My skin and sex don't make me, 'cause who am I?
But the light, that shines from my heart and makes you blind
Mortal with the final grip and it won't take me apart until it's time
[Hook: Eli Rebich]
Long nights with your head in the clouds
Your mercy's been your mission and your plan to break out
You gotta lose yourself
It's okay to lose yourself x2
